"when we go forward we miss the things we leave behind, that's what make our hearts so full."

Its' weird how fast I've grown up, so to say. I went to my youngest brother and sisters graduation tonight from eighth grade and it was strange. I don't remember mine at all. Just bits and pieces. After the ceremony I was walking through all the new graduates hugging and crying like they would never see each other again. To my other brother he laughed and wondered why they were taking it so seriously but at their point in life it is huge for them. And it must be weird going to a new place next year. I know I was scared. I went from a class of 108 to a class of 500 and it was weird. I miss the days where worrying about friends and what to wear was the worst of my worries. I go back to my old middle school and elementary school and I know few of the teachers because all the teachers that taught me are slowly retiring.

I've come to see the value of old memories and activities. But as much as i miss the old days I know I have to move on because that is a part of growing up. I have played field hockey for 8 years and I decided not to continue this fall. It has always been a part of who I am. I know people stereotype me as an athlete (and some of those stereotypes aren't good) But this year at school I have kind of decided to start over. In growing up I am in the process of finding myself and I am changing some of my priorities. I know I'll miss it and my friends on the team but its not over. And like those kids in 8th grade don't know, i'll still see my friends. But "as we go forward we miss the things we leave behind. That's what makes our hearts so full."

I'm not quite sure if any of that made sense or was necessary, just trying to think out loud. :)