Closer to Closure

Have you ever felt like....i don't know...numb?? Like your whole body just feels like it shut down and you are in shock kind of? Well today i kinda got that feeling. I went on facebook and came across my ex's page. He broke up with me almost 5 months ago. Long story short he was my first real boyfriend and first love and i had a crush on him for a while. So when we broke up it was really hard for me to handle. 

It was over Thanksgiving break and i had just met his whole family and he said "God told him that he shouldn't have a girlfriend." And being a Christian i can't fight God. He still wanted to be friends yadda yadda yadda and we tried to and it just got confusing for me. it didnt help he is one of the biggest flirts ever!! Haha so i got mixed signals and well....now he is dating someone. I didn't not expect him to find anyone else he is attractive, funny, and a pretty good guy. But it still made my body feel weird when i saw that "____ is in a relationship with..." She is really pretty, but it confused me because he said he wanted to focus on God...and honestly the last tim i saw him he seemed very far from it. And that hurt even more than this. So i guess i can FINALLY say i am over it. One chapter closed in my life and hopefully i don't have to open that book up again. *sigh* 

next chapter will hopefully be more exciting and with less pain than the last 10 months of my life :) but i guess i'll have to see. I know that God has helped me through the most painful part of this and i owe it all to him :) He has been there through it all and i know that this was all just a life lesson that i have learned from.