Seasons of Love

No the title has nothing do to with love and stuff. I just like that song from rent and this post has to do with seasons. Leaving Colorado in the end of April was tough for me. It was the end of a season and the beginning of another. The changing of seasons sometimes is painful. I know a lot of people get sick when seasons change. You can say I was spiritually sick for a while. So as I was trying to figure things out one of my devos really spoke to me.

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." ~Isaiah 43:18-19

At first I read that verse and was like, "forget?? why do I want to forget??" But I realized I was dwelling too much on what had happened and still living in the past. And when I do that I miss what is right in front of me. Which is God. I was starting to forget how He understands what I am going through and I can lean on Him. I know that a new season is coming in my life and I know God will be working through me in so many ways! And to tell you the truth I can not wait!!

I am learning about being vulnerable too. I know that sometimes it is necessary. I have been known to be really good at hiding what I am really feeling. In the long run that never seems to pan out well for me. I am realizing that it is not good for anyone. There is someone in my life I know I need to be completely honest and open with and that scares me. I am scared I will be rejected, but who does not fear that. But I know we both deserve the honesty and I know that stepping out will be something I need desperately. So that will be exciting and nerve wracking all together!

Besides all that I got a chance to visit some of my close friends from FLI this past weekend in Colorado springs! It was a blast!! I also got to see

some of my old professors and staff members from the institute and met some of the current students. It was a great time to see old and make new friends. The five days went way to fast and I am not a fan of the humidity and bugs of the east coast :p Here is a pic of some of my friends and I white water rafting

and hiking! (side note: no one fell out of the raft while rafting! we beasted it even when it started to thunderstorm!)